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Missed Opportunities
Dec. 31st, 2011 12:16 pmI am so angry right now I don't know if this will be coherent.
My sister and her two daughters were supposed to visit my Mother today, but their schedule was fluid. Mother said she would call me when they got there. The plan was that after going through some stuff my sister and nieces were planning to take we'd all go out to lunch together.
My oldest niece lives in Wyoming, and doesn't get back to Kentucky much. She's returning Monday. The only other time this year I've seen her was on Christmas day, and things were busy then so I didn't get to visit with her much.
Five minutes 'til Noon I called to see if there was any update. "I thought you were coming over. They're just about finished and will be leaving soon. We could have used you moving some of the stuff they're taking."
Once again, the females in my family have sabotaged something _they planned_ and which I was looking forward to. They even thought about me - because they needed me for something - but still didn't call.
I should know better by now. I should have called sooner. I didn't want to be a pest. So I missed out on something because _they_ lacked such consideration and simply forgot about my expressed wishes.
God, why do they keep doing these things to me, then carry on, like there's nothing wrong!! Any time I try, no matter how politely and gently, to bring up these sins against me they get angry and accuse me of inventing thins. Even of being crazy, if I am foolish enough to pursue matters. Then they ostracize me... until the next time they need me for something. When all is forgiven.
Any expression of criticism against my Mother or Sister is met with hostility and scorn, as if it's my problem they did me wrong. I am so angry I want to break things.
My Mother and sister are kind, generous people, except in this one area. I love them and enjoy their company. I just wish they would wake up and realize what they do to me when they do these things they refuse to admit even happen.
Addendum, forty-five minutes later:
http://static.schlockmercenary.com/comics/schlock20111231.jpg?1325059559
Worksafe.
Thanks. I needed that.
Then my Mother had to call - not long after that addendum - and ruin what little mood improvement I'd managed. Asking why I wasn't there, that they could have used me, that they had a good time... and when can I come over and help get her decorations down...
My sister and her two daughters were supposed to visit my Mother today, but their schedule was fluid. Mother said she would call me when they got there. The plan was that after going through some stuff my sister and nieces were planning to take we'd all go out to lunch together.
My oldest niece lives in Wyoming, and doesn't get back to Kentucky much. She's returning Monday. The only other time this year I've seen her was on Christmas day, and things were busy then so I didn't get to visit with her much.
Five minutes 'til Noon I called to see if there was any update. "I thought you were coming over. They're just about finished and will be leaving soon. We could have used you moving some of the stuff they're taking."
Once again, the females in my family have sabotaged something _they planned_ and which I was looking forward to. They even thought about me - because they needed me for something - but still didn't call.
I should know better by now. I should have called sooner. I didn't want to be a pest. So I missed out on something because _they_ lacked such consideration and simply forgot about my expressed wishes.
God, why do they keep doing these things to me, then carry on, like there's nothing wrong!! Any time I try, no matter how politely and gently, to bring up these sins against me they get angry and accuse me of inventing thins. Even of being crazy, if I am foolish enough to pursue matters. Then they ostracize me... until the next time they need me for something. When all is forgiven.
Any expression of criticism against my Mother or Sister is met with hostility and scorn, as if it's my problem they did me wrong. I am so angry I want to break things.
My Mother and sister are kind, generous people, except in this one area. I love them and enjoy their company. I just wish they would wake up and realize what they do to me when they do these things they refuse to admit even happen.
Addendum, forty-five minutes later:
http://static.schlockmercenary.com/comics/schlock20111231.jpg?1325059559
Worksafe.
Thanks. I needed that.
Then my Mother had to call - not long after that addendum - and ruin what little mood improvement I'd managed. Asking why I wasn't there, that they could have used me, that they had a good time... and when can I come over and help get her decorations down...
